Life As Of Now

inresponsetoirresponsibility:

So, this is O’mally. He’s been my best friend for the past 18 years and really, he’s the only one that hasn’t left me. Yet.

Friday, we have to put him down. Easily the most loveable cat that any human being could know, this cat could give you the best hugs. He’d gladly wrap his paws around your neck and hold on to you tighter than any human being could. 

Having to do this is probably the hardest thing I’ve gone though. Tough shit, right? Right. I’ve never really lost anyone close to me (well, to death, anyways. I lose friends every chance I get). Even my own grandmother has died and the only reason I cried was because everyone else was. I’ve never actually understood a real “loss” before and I still haven’t accepted the fact that I won’t see his face around my house anymore. Nor will I hear his annoying ass yell of a meow every time someone walks in the door. Nor will I hear him purring from across the room simply because he knows you’re there. If any of you have known me, you know I love this cat.

Friday is going to be really rough for me. A first real loss. A first real death that I have to deal with. I guess i’m fortunate enough that it’s a pet, not an actual person, right? I still think you’re wrong. I’m sure this cat has cared about me more than most of you have.

Prepare for emotional breakdowns / depression friday. I’m just glad this guy will be able to rest easy.